I dont even know where to start , I am so totally outta wack the last couple of days.I cant seem to get motivated to do anything at all ,my friend came over a few days ago and we had a few wines.The next day I actually felt worse, no i wasnt hung over,just pissed of with myself and in a very dark mood.Im trying to practise Mindfulness ,but my mind is just racing with thought, cant meditate no focuss whatsoever .Years ago a drink or eight would take the edge of, but now it just pushes me to the edge......Sometimes its hard to be me. Hopefully tonite I might be able to sleep,have had imsomnia for the last three nights, maybe a good nite sleep will get me outta my funk .